classes

today I had my first Div 3 arts concentrators seminar. and I felt all mixed. First, I looked around the room and was really confused. Why are all these people that I love and have taken all my other art classes with not here now??? And then I realized it... they graduated. damn it. my mentors are gone!!! So then I looked around and realized, ok, yes, some of these people are my people... kids who have been in my art classes since Sculpture Tutorial and familiar faces I trust and admire their work. So that was good. I just have to open up my eyes to new people and, more importantly, people I've made haisty judgements about. SO, aliya, open your freaking eyes a little. I made a guide this summer about "How not to hate" and sometimes I'm really bad at following it.
I also have to be super-optimistic about my other class, "Art, Community, and Cultural Diversity". Today in class the teacher showed a movie and people started whispering loudly to each other about nothing like it was HIGH SCHOOL. geeze. But, on the bus back to hampshire, me and three other Hampshire kids in the class had our own small, "Advanced 397BB" class and talked about how we were going to make this great whether it was heading that way or not. so I feel optimistic.

Despite feeling down right now, I am feeling good. it's lovely being Div 3. I love the idea of really putting my all into one project and making it for real awesome. The thing is that right now I feel behind, and lost, and confused because I don't have everything worked out or ironed out or even talked about. AHHHHHH!!!!

By thursday I'll (hopefully) have a studio space in the art barn so I can start having an excuse to just start making work. Instead of just thinking about it so much. Or sending out emails and then being annoyed when I don't receive them back right away. One idea I had was to make my studio space into a part "listening booth" and build a fort or something cool in there that would be a semi-permanent installation. And I'd have a sign up sheet next to it, and anyone could come sign up for it and I'd listen to them for half an hour. Like an on-going experiment in active listening.

Last night we had our first mod meeting and talked about so many awesome things. I have the most adorable mod ever. I made everyone take a family portrait, first in height order, and then pretending we're all friends. or in a sitcom show. It was a really great night. which makes me feel stupid when I start missing the groups and people and places I'm not in. So I'm going to focus on the people I have here right now.

how are you?
I'm great - never been better!
toyboatoyboatoyboat.
goodnight lovely readers.